Friday, February 17, 2006 @5:13 AM
the week has passed so quickly..in the blink of an eye, so many tests are over, and so many results are to come. not to mention somemore tests.
papers that are over:
1. ss
2. maths
3. english
4. physics
5. biology
and now, i have to "cheerfully" await my results. argh.
i got my chem and a math marks back, and they really suck. at first, i was contented with my chemistry marks, until i saw somebody's. i realized how many mistakes i made, and how many more marks i could have gotten. even those TWO marks could make a huge difference to how i felt this afternoon, and how i am feeling now. i think that little talk with her didn't make much difference to me at all! and i'm not as hardworking as she made me out to be..i try to do more work, pray for strength to keep going on..i know how essential self study and revision and initiative to do homework is, for this sec 3 year. and i still feel like bashing myself - i want to feel pain.
a math. i don't really feel that upset because i expected to fail. with my atrociously blank mind that day - a pass would be a miracle.
sometimes i wonder if i made the correct decision - not being together. it would have changed my vday so much..do i regret my decision? do i regret not accepting it? do i really miss him as much as i feel?freak. i wish i talked more..then maybe now i would feel better. but the time has passed, and i can't turn back..
