Thursday, May 31, 2007 @6:51 AM
me and youand you and me no matter how you toss the diceit had to be the only one for me is youand you for meso happy togethermany thanks to ihmyc for the fun movie yesterday and melanie for the day out today. at least it helped to destress me a bit though everything was still the same when i came home. ><
he's stressed. everytime something like this happens, he'll change. is it what i think it is? knowing that's she's not ok, yet there's nothing we can do, making him feel so powerless he needs to do something to let himself feel that he's still in charge. he probably wanted a hug today and as usual, i didn't react. go on, punch me.
i've been to paradise, but i've never been to me can someone just let me rot away here.
Monday, May 28, 2007 @12:33 AM
sigh.
this weird feeling is making me all zhanzhanjingjing one. not nice.
Saturday, May 26, 2007 @6:21 AM
argh shit what did i do, man! i'm so dead.. like, really dead. i was the one who bandaged the leg, not anyone else! AH SHIT.
on a happier note. thanks to everyone for the wonderful day two days ago. the gifts, wishes and smses. (:
Friday, May 25, 2007 @5:48 AM
i am so pissed now. p-i-s-s-e-d PISSED. haven't been this angry/frustrated for a long, long time.
like wtf? if you haven't tried it, don't ask me to do it. if you receive this kind of comment in your report book, do you think you'll be unaffected? if the school was really so easy to take charge of, why don't you try it? not the whole level takes midyear o levels. i think less than half the cohort does. and you expect the school to postpone dance elec assessments till july, just for the miserable 100 ++ of us? and delay our napfa, and thus letting us have less time for prelims studying? i don't think any of us wants that. and you know why i hate telling you guys anything? 'cos whatever i say, you'll try to find a solution, and tell it to me. i know you're trying to help, but it doesn't really get through because sometimes all i want is for you to listen.
and about the other thing. the world is here to help you! when i tell you to go rest, you don't want. you're not even willing to help yourself! if you're not willing, why should i even do my part? not like i'm doing a lot, but yea! if you're not willing to help yourself, maybe i should just totally give up on helping you altogether and spend the time studying/relaxing instead! i would get a lot more rest! and have you ever thought about this? i've never complained about the fact that you favour him. i could always tell, even when i was a small kid. the way you treated the two of us was different. what he wanted, he could almost certainly get. i don't know if he had it, but i never got any motivation from you all. i've never had you dangling a reward in front of my nose, telling me that if i wanted it, i had to study hard. you don't hit me if i fail. you don't do anything at all. do you know it's difficult to keep yourself going, especially when everything's just looking down? down into this pit?
and school is gonna kill me over the holidays. improve what sciences man. improve what ss man. my maths is falling down the drain. my history has never been consistent. so that means either 1. i study every subject thoroughly like i have 48 hours a day during everyday of the june hols or 2. i should just go and die.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007 @6:40 AM
i am so pissed and irritated, i'm going to start smacking people soon.
beauty sleep is flying away.
if it happens, i know i'm just gonna cry buckets. especially these few days.
Sunday, May 20, 2007 @5:57 AM
argh. undone dance elective. seriously, i don't care if the deadline is term 3. but for now, i want to do my chinese instead of having this thingy on my mind all the time. like the legacy thing also. i think we have to wash more than one car to get like, $20 for tkgs needy pupils' fund. wtf. no time already.
someone please give me a kick in the ass and get me working. i seriously don't want to study already. but no choice. i hate forcing myself to do things.
Friday, May 18, 2007 @4:57 AM
YES I CAN FINALLY BLOG! i bet you can actually tell how delighted i am! i haven't been able to blog for ages! and now, drumroll please! sentences to sum up things i wanted to blog about ^_^ (but not everything though. i can't really remember half of what i wanted to say.)
aunty jean and uncle anthony are fun to hang out with.
midyears sucked.
midyears results SHOCKED.
tension! ><
but anyway! back to today. ARRRRRGH lessons again! sleepy during chinese. sleepy during chinese supplementary. but at least, missy relief teacher actually managed to attract my attention for a while. after supp today went to parkway with sonia to get her pink monkey. GWARR! monkey monkey monkey! got my fishy ear studs and a call from ms ho. people, if by now you still haven't checked your email OR read my msn nick and for some weird reason have come to my blog, PLEASE BRING SPA TASK 10 ON MONDAY! PASS UP BY FIRST PERIOD! MAKE A PHOTOCOPY OF IT TO STUDY 'COS YOU NEED IT FOR MOCK SPA! IF YOU DON'T HAVE PHOTOCOPIER COME TO SCHOOL EARLY ON MONDAY AND PASS YOUR WORK TO ME!
oh yes, and we've got a truckload of work for the weekend. well, i feel like i've got a truckload, at least. or maybe a lorryload. dance elective, emaths, amaths, open class, fatima. oh and that reminds me, i should go read the scripts now.
ROAR ROAR ROAR ROAR ROAR. i think someone should give me a push to start my work. NOW.
Monday, May 07, 2007 @8:34 AM
i sleep, not because i want to sleep, but because i know without the sleep, i'll be dead tired the next day. i don't want to sleep because i don't know what the next day will bring. my body gets the rest it needs. but does my brain? sometimes my reactions become so slow, i wonder whether it's because my subconscious mind has split itself into two and are battling each other, not giving my brain any rest at all.
and it's all come to a point that everything is so clogged up, i can't even find a way to express myself anymore. ARGH. *punches brain*
on the other hand. going to cassie's place today was fun. her cat likes my giraffe (:
