Sunday, February 28, 2010 @4:49 AM
gosh i am very irritated and pissed off now. what kind of attitude is this?! you're not the prince of the house even though you may feel like it. it doesn't mean you're sick (or you FEEL sick) that you can turn up your nose at food that tastes bland. just eat it! would you rather have no food at all? you don't have the license to vent your anger on the stuff around just 'cos the food doesn't taste good. i'm not defending her, that her cooking is good, but just give her some basic respect please! gahh i don't care if you read this really because i think this is something you need to be aware of and you need to change. get rid of your sick-boy-got-so-many-things-to-do attitude because you're not the only one.
and when i was applying for temp jobs at hpb the form's got so many things to fill in!! gahh. even previous employment and i'm supposed to have three jobs to fill in. all for a temporary admin job. i ended up filling in the names of the schools i've been to, 'cos after all i did serve there. (:
quite exhausted from the week and got a long week coming up ahead too. gotta go get my beauty sleep soon (: but wait, gotta finish up admin first! hahaha. the bad thing about being busy is that you get tired after a few weeks of it.. but the good thing is that you get the most out of your days. if you prioritize your time well enough. (:
meowmeow!
Saturday, February 20, 2010 @8:42 PM
there's a wake at the void deck below my house and its been there for a week.. heard that's today's the last day. anyway the point is that they've been here for really long in comparison to the other wakes held downstairs..
everyday as i walk past the wake i hear lots of talking and i see lots of people. they even had an extension into the carpark. i always think the lady who died must be a real matriach (female version of patriach) with 8 children and so many people gathering to see her off. i wonder if i could be a good matriach in my very own way too, reaching out to the people around me and (hopefully) inspiring them.
when i came home just now, the music started playing. and contrary to what i expected, the dead gloomy funeral songs, it was happy-happy-joy-joy chinese music. i opened my window wide to enjoy the music and it felt like a live band was playing right outside my door. (yes, that's how loud it is.) it made me wonder what kind of wake and funeral i'd like to have, what readings i'd like at my funeral mass, what i'd like my friends to wear..
so i'd just like to say here, that when i die, please wear green to my wake and funeral. (:
Thursday, February 11, 2010 @6:59 AM
okay, so my camp is over.. its name is actually 'school of witness'. so yes, for six weeks i went to school.. just that i learnt different stuff from what we usually learn. this school taught me loads about my religion and the people around me..
i guess words wouldn't be able to describe all that i'm feeling right now. in the six weeks i spent at the cayc compound i learnt about myself, why i behave the way i do, about the church's stand on several issues, about a church community.. made quite a few friends, some really good ones, and had a lot of surreal experiences. was able to form some theories about my own behaviour.. and am renewed with a zest to learn even more about my faith! hur, amazing right! i'm just in this study-study mode all of a sudden :D
i would miss a lot of things that occured in this school. listening to others HTHT around me whilst playing on my ipod.. bursting into song randomly and suddenly having others join in.. captain's ball and frisbee at the end of the day.. the really good food.. the community there.. the continual presence of the friends.. and i'll miss hanging out with the staff too. their true selves (when they're not in their staff-y mode) is quite funny. XD
its been an interesting journey, finding out so much that i never knew before. for the entire christmas season i felt quite "off", in the sense i didn't feel much joy, it was just like any holiday period. hanging out with friends, doing some last minute shopping, making cards.. it was for a fleeting moment right before the christmas mass that i felt christmas-y. and i guess at that moment i got reminded of why i even want to be a catholic in the first place - i liked the holy-holy feeling one usually gets after a particularly enriching camp. going for sch of witness has given me tips to keep this holy-holy feeling going in my life, and i'm going to make a conscientious effort to do so! i've already decided i want to live a life of faith where i never let go of this religion i have. but no worries people, i'm not going to force anything on you guys. still the same ivy but a little more thoughtful. XD and slightly more time spent in my church.
i also had lots of experiences during this camp, facil-ing a 2d1n camp for others, ministering to others etc. unique one-of-a-kind experiences for me.. first shot at facilitating a camp even though i know i don't look like it. tangibly feeling another's pain. daring to share more about myself through the testimony. stuffing a stack of like 6/7 chips into my mouth. playing keyboard randomly in between sessions. doing ballet barefoot! teaching my friends how to do some simple exercises.. etc.
looking back, the best $100 my parents have used on me for a long time. and best six weeks spent in singapore for a long time. (:
and now looking forward - dinner tmr, tuition with alvie on saturday, cny and valentine's on sunday, dinner on tues, class birthday celeb and ash wed.. and more things to come along! but before i can do any of this stuff, i need to get rid of the rashes.
GO AWAY DUMB RASHES!!
