Sunday, April 30, 2006 @7:07 AM
WEIRD FEELINGS!
<33 jean, jacq, cass, simeon, roy, MONKEY
Friday, April 28, 2006 @6:08 AM
I AM SO DARN PISSED.
I DON'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN WHO IS IN CHARGE OF THAT STUPID OBS. ALL I CARE IS THAT THEY PUT SERVICE BOARDS BACK INTO THE LIST OF CCA LEADERS TO GO FOR THIS.
like WHAT THE FUCK la. i don't care about swearing already. not WHEN I'VE READ SOMEBODY'S BLOG AND I FIND OUT THAT THEY'VE ALREADY BEEN NOTIFIED FOR OBS.
last year i was supposed to go but it was ONLY FOR SEC 3s. so WHATEVER, i didn't really care. THIS YEAR I'M OF AGE OK! i am so fucking pissed. i really feel like bashing whoever is in charge of the leadership obs this year. doesn't mean that we're from av board or whatever we're pro in leadership ok?? i'm already gonna CRACK soon! DOESN'T THE SCHOOL GET THE FUCKING SIGNAL WE'RE NOT MADE TO BE FUCKING LEADERS OR WHATEVER CRAP LA. WE NEED TRAINING. IT'S NOT LIKE I'M BORN A LEADER OR WHATEVER SO I BECOME THE CHAIRMAN OF AV BOARD. I'M NOT A F-ING LEADER LA, FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
i don't care whoever the teacher is. i don't care whether it's mdm lenny, mdm lee, ms chan, or WHOEVER. i just want AV BOARD put back into the list. i thought they wanted to train all the student leaders. but turns out they think people in av board and probably editorial board soon are not STUDENTS, they're NATURAL LEADERS. that is so FUCKING WRONG.
one fucking thing for each thing i'm angry about now.
fucking thing fucking thing fucking thing fucking thing fucking thing fucking thing fucking thing
one fucking life for each year i've tolerated this not-going-for-leadership-stuffs
fucking life fucking life fucking life
one fucking asshole for the one person who's messing up my life, which is MYSELF
FUCKING ASSHOLE.
FREAK LA! I AM DAMN PISSED.
Saturday, April 22, 2006 @6:18 AM
this is so darn shitty. i feel so bad and i don't know why. i just feel like staying on the computer for another few more hours before i sleep and i'll just ditch my bio revision, knowing full well i'll regret it later. some kind of faeces this is.
i feel sick. had phlegm in my throat starting from this morning then sneezed like an idiot during french. and now i have a headache. even though i tried to sleep a bit just now. maybe it's a sign i should start studying. what a bad time to fall sick. and if i go to the doctor it'll be the same old diagnosis..so why go? might as well just eat some cooling stuff and abstain from curry mee and laksa. and hashbrowns with mayo.
i want solitude. and yet i want some company. smsed ben today and talked to him for a while..with all his broken english smses. tsk. but it didn't make me feel any better. i should go dunk my head in the freezer.
FIVE MORE DAYS! FIVE MORE DAYS TO HER RETURN! even though i don't talk to her. oh well.
Friday, April 21, 2006 @7:47 AM
quick post.
sorry to everyone i was snappish to for the past few days. i'm getting more and more temperamental by the day. this is just fantastic.
got a big shock on yesterday after tennis. how fun.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006 @6:31 AM
wow. i logged into my blogger account with the wrong password just now and i thought someone hacked it. or maybe somebody DID. >< argh.
anyway. just wanted to reflect about the many church services that i've gone for during easter triduum and with my catechism class. i think it was really great and we all bonded, especially during the food selling. wilmer said i was enthu -- i think it had something to do with the milo i drank that night, and the previous experiences i've had selling stuff to strangers. yep. and i hope that together with most of my classmates and catechists [jean, ames, amos, wilmer, roy, rebecca, cassandra, marianne..], i've become more sociable and deeper in faith.
and that concludes my reflections. i sound like some..teacher.
a hectic weekend caused me to slack! omg. i was soooo lazy. spent time MAPLING. instead of finishing my homework. i compromised by trying to be more hardworking today. but apparently i don't think it's really working. where's my source of inspiration?!? she went off somewhere. -- for i dunno what. ><
ok i think that's all. i forgot what i wanted to blog about. sorry all.
tag replies:
mich - erm. that sounds like amanda. hmm.
candice - HIYAYAYAYAYYA! how you know my blog add??
liqin - ok. i'll try to link you soon. join the long long list of people waiting to be linked. my green and orange partner ((: those colours RAWK!!
bel - fine you tagged now i'll tag you :) SMILEEEE!
Friday, April 14, 2006 @6:19 AM
it's been a week already. time flies by. next week and the week after next will be week 5 and week 6.. the two busiest weeks of a term. with all the CAs. well. i really hope i'll be able to concentrate and fare better this term. but at least i think if i improve steadily it's better than i improve a lot at one shot, 'cos i will keep improving and not improve a lot then blonk! fail everything. that can happen, you know. i'm targeting an l1r5 of 15 this term. five points less. i should be able to make it, provided i buck up my humanities, a math, and languages.
blah blah. my friend is leaving for china and won't be back till the 27th. no fair. i wanna go prc too. and maybe i'll get to! in june!
after laoshi spoke to me the other day i guess i'm feeling much better about it. plus probably alvina and joanne and the rest are also going xian. yep. everything seems to be turning around. well, except for the major factor - studies. sheesh.
went for mass yesterday and today. got pestered to go yesterday by angela. in my reebok shorts. so undressed for church. but had fun anyway. sat with steffi, simeon, louis, jean, rebecca, marianne and ames. bonded loads with all of them ((: some other classmates also came, like jasper and gary. and roy and wilmer and jacq. and jacq's parents.
i think i won't be mean (muahahah) to jean and ames. i shall be friendly to ames. ^^ ain't i nice?
today was a long service. was it just me, or was jasper looking towards me during the veneration of the cross and communion? everytime i looked up i seemed to see his eyes. it was so bad i resorted to staring at my tennis shoes.
yupp. this concludes my post. continue tagging everyone. and i'll try to be more hardworking and link you all soon dudettes!
Saturday, April 08, 2006 @7:32 AM
i just can't face her anymore. and i don't even know why.
what if she asks? im dead.
Thursday, April 06, 2006 @7:02 AM
GOSH. big event of the day.
my rubik's cube got confiscated and i got it back. yea. GO ME!!
maths was slack. coz our friends were teaching and i got the hang of most of the rules already. so i slacked and slacked and play with my cube. and THEN. it got confiscated. SHEESH. and i didn't even PUT it on my table. i hid it UNDER my table. after school went to look for the teacher to get it back. yayness. i think i irritated her by following her everywhere and in the end she just pointed to it in 1/9 and i went to get it. i solved it twice already. go dude.
i think my math really sucks even though i understand the formulas and everything. as mom would say. i've got potential. but i don't think so la. all my potential seems to have evaporated whenever i start on new topics. sheesh.
and oh ya. i went to the dentist yesterday. nothing wrong with my teeth! YAYNESS! and i know this is random but i think i eat too much. ><
played badminton during recess today and helped alvina to clear up the rackets. i'm being nice. and i have to STAY nice.
and btw. i STILL wanna retire. i hate being a supervisor. makes me all tensed up. eww.
MY BACK HURTS LIKE SHIT.
Sunday, April 02, 2006 @6:58 AM
oh my. i feel so shitty now.
talked just now for around 15 minutes. kinda depressed now. i wanna go for the solo trip so much..but she made me feel better about going somewhere ALONE. everything has its good and bad points. we just gotta live with it. but still. i don't like being alone on that special day which comes once a year.
i think even if she gives mom an idea of e trip to indonesia, mom still won't let me go. i really wanna go lah. time to get away from tennis and work more towards this side. this more aesthetics side.
oh man. i feel like crying again. BWAWAWAWA.
Saturday, April 01, 2006 @5:47 AM
i feel so shittified.
i wonder why teachers are so pissed whenever we say shit. it's not like we're saying fuck right in front of them. sheesh.
SHIT.
SHIT.
SHIT.
SHIT.
someone inspire me to mug for chem.
