Friday, August 04, 2006 @7:46 AM
busy week. i'm tired.
china gals have spent this week at school doing their own work.. and i got such a fat shock the other day when mdm lenny suddenly asked me about what they supposed to do. not to mention lowering the water potential in my mouth repeatedly as i tried to explain biology to the chinese teacher. but oh well. i made a brilliant discovery! cells in chinese in called XI BAO. (:
quite a couple of ca this week. hope i've done well in all of them. after all i tried my best.. especially for the two sciences.. not so much for chinese though. but i have no desire to fail chinese. the thoughts of what awaits me if i fail anything this term just traumatises me.
i feel like i'm gonna die! so many careless mistakes especially in physics, maths, a maths, the rehearsals i haven't been able to attend, the impending doom.. i feel like i'm being drowned in this world of things i'm so desperately trying to juggle. i've always been able to do it but now i don't seem to be able to. i don't want to be hamtam-ed by anyone.. esp the rehearsal-in-charge.
damnit. i don't feel comfortable around them anymore. i'm not even going for the bbq anymore. i just want them to all go away, maybe except one of them whom i really respect. oh my how am i going to face them anymore? so many things have happened this week i can't accept them all. and nothing is sinking in. i was so close today. i don't want everything that's been happening to just be absorbed suddenly, in an awkward position, and i'll just break down. that really nearly happened today, with all the shit. even the lenny lesson didn't cheer me up much.
