Saturday, April 14, 2007 @4:19 AM
it has been a hectic week. and a not very productive week.. but oh well.
the past week:
monday - tuition. tuesday - ss remedial. wednesday - tennis. thursday - tuition. friday - FREE!
upcoming week:
monday - tuition. tuesday - FREE! wednesday - rio tinto thingy? thursday - FREE! friday - FREE!
for now, anyway. wish i could make it for mass one of the days. feel more comfortable there anyway. and won't wanna return home early on tuesday and wednesday. to a silent, empty house. sometimes, i wonder whether a silent, empty house is better or just a silent house. and i wonder how i would be now, what state i would be in, if it didn't happen.
a friend said a couple of days ago that the way i behave doesn't reflect any problems at all, and that if the same thing had happened to her, she'd be crying all the way. in the affirmation notes that we wrote to our classmates the other time, another friend said that i live like i've got no worries. another one said i was bubbly. and a teacher said i'm so positive, it's hard to imagine me down about anything.
personally, i don't know how i do it. i guess it's just this thing in me which refuses to allow me to be sad, and doesn't allow me to be pissed at anyone for long either. (: it's good right?
In sleep he sang to me In dreams he came That voice which calls to me And speaks my name And do I dream again? For now I find The phantom of the opera is there, Inside my mindyes, i miss an old friend. thinking of the times which we could have had, if you hadn't gone away. if you hadn't quit.
i'm not saying anything anymore, not 'cos i don't trust you, but because it'll drag everything back up again.
