Friday, May 25, 2007 @5:48 AM
i am so pissed now. p-i-s-s-e-d PISSED. haven't been this angry/frustrated for a long, long time.
like wtf? if you haven't tried it, don't ask me to do it. if you receive this kind of comment in your report book, do you think you'll be unaffected? if the school was really so easy to take charge of, why don't you try it? not the whole level takes midyear o levels. i think less than half the cohort does. and you expect the school to postpone dance elec assessments till july, just for the miserable 100 ++ of us? and delay our napfa, and thus letting us have less time for prelims studying? i don't think any of us wants that. and you know why i hate telling you guys anything? 'cos whatever i say, you'll try to find a solution, and tell it to me. i know you're trying to help, but it doesn't really get through because sometimes all i want is for you to listen.
and about the other thing. the world is here to help you! when i tell you to go rest, you don't want. you're not even willing to help yourself! if you're not willing, why should i even do my part? not like i'm doing a lot, but yea! if you're not willing to help yourself, maybe i should just totally give up on helping you altogether and spend the time studying/relaxing instead! i would get a lot more rest! and have you ever thought about this? i've never complained about the fact that you favour him. i could always tell, even when i was a small kid. the way you treated the two of us was different. what he wanted, he could almost certainly get. i don't know if he had it, but i never got any motivation from you all. i've never had you dangling a reward in front of my nose, telling me that if i wanted it, i had to study hard. you don't hit me if i fail. you don't do anything at all. do you know it's difficult to keep yourself going, especially when everything's just looking down? down into this pit?
and school is gonna kill me over the holidays. improve what sciences man. improve what ss man. my maths is falling down the drain. my history has never been consistent. so that means either 1. i study every subject thoroughly like i have 48 hours a day during everyday of the june hols or 2. i should just go and die.
