Friday, November 02, 2007 @9:25 AM
went for all souls' today.
and i got emo. 'cos i saw this indian woman, and she came up after blessing of columbarium so i think she had a loved one in there. the look on her face was .. indescribable. it's like, you can see that she's obviously still very hurt by the loss. but it's already made her numb. she wasn't even crying throughout the whole service, she just sat and stood with the rest of the congregation but she didn't do anything else.
just seeing her, makes me want to cry. and appreciate how lucky i am to have not have to go through this kind of pain yet, in my sixteen years on this earth. and how lucky it is to be able to take care of someone even though my temper does get the better of me at times, especially when i'm stressed.
and then halfway, i suddenly thought about her and the little one. who died. just because she was working.
don't you think it's really sad? you lose a kid, but you have to see people around you everyday with their own kids. everyday you get reminded of your own pain and loss, but have to pretend everything's ok.
almost losing someone is already so scary, i can't imagine how it feels to actually lose someone.
i hope he's in heaven.
