Wednesday, January 30, 2008 @7:17 AM
argh my temper is so difficult to control. have to literally bite my tongue to stop myself from saying hurtful things to one of the people i admire and appreciate the most.
it kinda hurts to see all the things people say to rebutt what she says, and i can't do anything about it. that hurts the most. wanting to defend her but knowing that whatever you say probably won't have an effect at all 'cos you're the youngest.
its saddening to see her all moody. she loves you so much, you don't see it do you? she told me how much she wanted to come home just to see how you are, how you're coping through all that you had to go through. no one allowed her to.
she said, she had to stay at home. tv for company, and occasionally the uncle. she goes out on mondays and thursdays, but the rest of the days she stays home. she does the same things everyday. she said she pined to be back here.
why don't we all treat her better? why not all chip in instead of me trying to make this humungous effort to make her happy? why not finally notice the sadness on her face?
courage. every pe lesson relates back to me immediately.
